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2011-06-14T14:12:00.002+08:00

I don't know why i'm gonna write this. But im way too bored i guess. LOL! Just an update to show i'm still alive. ^___^

2010-06-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

I just ended my day in not so a very good way.
Im sorry for the mistakes done today..

And i dont know what to say. Sigh.

2010-05-08T13:18:00.002+08:00

It have been 4 days since bro enlistment in NS.

Wish him all the best. :D

As for me, i have been working hard since my last off.

Although its only 2 days, it seems like 5 days already. Time pass real slow. :(

Feeling kinda sickly today. I dont know why. My throat is super drying, my eyes are tired.

I even coughed abit here and there today. Not so in a good mood today.

Dear customers, FYI, please dont irritate me today. I haven even had lunch yet.

I seriously need more rest before i fall sick, as i told myself, NO MC for this month.

Im sucha good girl. :D Hehehe.

Quarreled abit with baby today. Small matter. Im sorry love. Didn't mean it.

Anyway, whats for lunch today? thinking.. Mac or a proper meal?

Back to work first while slowly think.

2010-04-22T19:04:00.001+08:00

One word to describe the feeling now, ANGRY !! Period.

2010-04-21T12:07:00.002+08:00

As usual, work. Wasn't supposed to be late for work.

Ended up walked a little more and end up late to Ngee Ann City to open store.

Fingers burnt in the morning too. Due to my dumbness.

Yawnsssss ~ Im still tired, but very hungry now already.

Another 7 hours to go till end work. I cant wait for ending of work.

Can't reveal now. Hahahahaha.

Im back to work peeps. Wish me luck for today's sales.

2010-04-20T22:26:00.002+08:00

Finally finally im done with the re-vamp of this blog.
It took me ages to finish it man. GOSH !!
Wait till baby looked at my blog again, sure shocked. LOLOLOL.

Anyway, im finally back from genting. which is quite sometime already.
Next trip coming up, BKK with Baby.. Hopfully with friends too.
Currently, busy with work like usual.
Although alot of stuffs happened. Its all over, i hope. *cross fingers*
Anyway.. will be joining mika's dad during August. Finally office job.
And double yeah's to work with Mika !!! :D

Friends life.., still the same. i wanna meet up again soon buddies. whole bunch of you !!
for a dinner or whatever.
Love life.., its still the same too. If i were to compare, its much better of cus.
and it seems daddy & bros liked him alot too. :D Thumbs up baby. Hehehehe.
Sometimes, you're super uber irritating, but still you got your ways to cheer me up.
Family wise.., bro is enlisting in NS soon. Less one companion at home.
But still, im looking forward to see him become a real man. :D

2010-02-26T20:06:00.002+08:00

I've been truly very busy or lets say lazy lately.
So there is a lack of updates. Hahahaha ~

Life have been good i guess.
The new year have been going on well for me.
Im hyper and back to my cheery side again.
Its been like 4months plus i suppose that im attached again?
Hahahaha. Its a long long story.
Wish us all the best. Mika when's your turn?? :P

Anyway.. CNY had been so so for me.
But still ang baos collected quite a sum. ((:
Double the yeahs and double the smiles. <33

Upcoming programmes status:

1st. Genting trip with Buddies love, counting down to 26th March
2nd. BKK trip with Allan pipi & maybe Mika? Counting down to July
3rd. Taiwan trip with maybe Qianen? Pipi & Weijie still pending for Oct

Im so busy with trips. But just to add in before genting trip,
i have a wisdom tooth surgery to go for soon. This one counting down 7 days. :(
Its the after process im afraid of. I wonder whats the rate of pain.
Sigh. Be brave Bibi. Just bear the pain, not talking for days.
After pain, i sure use 10 cups of listerine to gurgle my mouth.
Eat as much as i can to gain back to my normal size.
Cus im sure im gonna be slimming down real fast.
Ewwwww~

2010-01-04T16:53:00.002+08:00

The laziness to start updating.

Put it simple in words.

So much has happened during the past few many weeks.

Lets say over the months too.

I've learnt to open my eyes even bigger after falling down.

I learn to stand up after a great fall.

Please trust me this time.

I know who is nice & who is not.

I know what i want for a better future.

Enough of the relationships.

Now to work. Should i go & request or should i stay put at the same place?

Its very tempting i know.

2009-11-27T22:12:00.002+08:00

Birthday was welly spent. (:

Greatest Birthday i ever spent can. Teehehehehe ~

24th Nov 09

spent on Massage, then meeting up with Mika Eunice, Y & KL.

It was equally as fun as it can be.

especially that memorable night.

i know such days wont happen again, i think.

anyway..

25th Nov 09

Met up with Tracy Wifey for lashes extension in BrowHaus.

Not that very good i have to say. Waste money. NB.

Then headed to Cedele for her job interview.

Wifey interview with my company went well. Happy for her.

Soon i'll be able to welcome her in Molton Brown. (:

After that tog with Wifey met up with Zwei & Co.

Dine in at Itacho @ ION.

Thanks for coming new met friends and of cus for the two cakes.

Sweet like crazy & funny like mad. LOL.

Headed to DBLO for the night.

I was high like crazy but happy like mad. LoveLove.

Jokes never left us. I even make alot of noise disturbing ppl after Club. WTH.

But it was funny can. Esp Alan. hahahaha. Im the biggest wife arent i? LOL.

Pictures all uploaded on all sides.

26th Nov 09

Happy 20th Birthday to myself. Im finally joining all of you in the 2 Club. (:

Met up with Mika Eunice & Weifeng for purchasing of BBQ food.

The rest of the buddies came to helped out after that. LOVE.

Thanks for the surprises and presents.

And of cus all the buddies whom turned up for the BBQ session.

And that bloody Xueli, YOU CAME TOO!! Meet up soon. LOVE ~

I had fun, so does all of you isnt it?

My side photos have all been uploaded.

left with some of Mika Eunice & Zoe sides. (:

Im happy at the same time alittle upset.

Yes, someone should know why.

But overall, im happy i've finally grow up. <33

2009-11-24T02:55:00.002+08:00

I'm just back from meeting Mika love, Yiksian & K.L

Tired can ~ Luckily im off tomorrow.

Or else i sure cannot take it again. Hehehe.

I've been sleeping so late lately.

Think my body system is going to be down very soon.

1st, i need to get back my beauty sleep.

2nd, i need to adjust my body clock.

3rd, i need to have a very good long body massage.

The 3rd one is going to be complete by later at 2pm.

Appointment booked. Thanks to my dear Murni. (:

Yeah.. Massage like finally lor.

I seriously need to relieve my aching body.

And yes, Birthday coming soon. Im so excited can.

Wohooooooo ~

Tracy wifey going to give me a big surprise.

Buddies are all going to be there for me too. DOUBLE YEAH!!!

BrowHaus, should i go to do my eyelash?

I think maybe eyebrow better. (:

2009-11-21T04:04:00.003+08:00

Many thanks to dear Mika, whom console me earlier on before she head out.

Also thanks to my dear buddies,

Bin wei, Wilfred & Wei Jie for making me smile after sometime.

They are the best buddies still ~

Im dont want it to happen this way.

But yes, im still suffering.

Hopefully i can walk thru myself on this long journey.

Im walking towards the exit ain't i?

When i know everything has broken into pieces,

even my new kitty mouse right side wing had broken into pieces,

i just sat there and cry by myself.

Seriously i dont know why but i still feel sad.

It really do marks the end of everything isn't it?

I can't bring anything back, neither do i want to anymore.

I really don't wish i end up in depression.

If my dear Mika can walk out thru all this pain,

so can i, right? Im strong i know. (:

For birthday celebration, i've booked everything.

The rest left are the invitations confirmation and im done ~

2009-11-20T16:54:00.001+08:00

Does treating me like this satisfy you alot? :(

2009-11-13T17:26:00.004+08:00

After sometime, i finally update blog.

Clockwise Left to Right: YuanZhi Body Wash, Blu Marquis Candela,

Pine Leg Soother, Hair HydraMasque, Eucalyptus & Ginger BodyScrub

Today's Pampering for myself : BODY SCRUB!!!!
Loveeeeeeeee~

Next pampering treat will be my hairmasque. (:

Finally had my haircut today.

my hair ends are so dry that it needs some trimming.

and now my fringe is short that i find it abit irritating. LOL

the other day at work,

ate with my dear partner Murni in the canteen.

a plate of rice which is super cheap can..

and a box of cakes.

Isn't it delicious? And the two of us finish everything.
seriously i think there is something wrong with me.

i've been eating alot these days can!!!! definitely not pregnant of cus. (:

Im off to watch my drama ~

2009-11-04T01:15:00.002+08:00

After 2 busy busy days, im finally off for 2 days. tired ~

Boxes of stocks, returns & even price tags are killing me.

thanks to tracy wife for helping me. (:

My day spent :

Slacking in eunice office for hours.

Sleeping & printing photos in her office. LOL

Head to Ikea in Tampines straight after that.

Already very long never take long distance bus rides.

Bought home alot of loots ~

Cheap and nice & alot too. (:

My loots for the day:

1. A coffee table to put laptop & table light on top

2. Photo Frames (films alike design)

3. Black table light

4. Two bathing towels

Head over to his place to collect the rest of my stuffs.

when i saw little zel, i hugged her so tightly.

its been long since i last saw her.

after taking everything, talked to his mother.

after i left, Constance Jie told me his mom cried again. :(

im so very upset can. Before i left, i feel like hugging his mom.

But in order not to let her cry, i never did so. :(

didn't expect so many things to happen in one night.

But Constance Jie says i looked more happy now. hahahhaa.

and yes i am. im really happy of my life now.

off to bed soooooonn ~

2009-10-29T02:01:00.002+08:00

this few days either its work or meeting friends.

slacking with best friends tog brings back memories.

many memories and jokes.

wilfred is so very funny just now.

he even played guitar inside 7-11 for me & the cashier lady.

i just cant stop laughing. LOL !!

and its off again for my coming morning. (:

sleeping in till late. chatting on the phone with friends.

it has never been that good.

at the least im leading a happy life right now.

ever since i came back from BKK.

the next coming up... ~

Genting trip with BFF's !!! YEAH !!!

its gonna be a fun one this time round at genting. (:

BKK TRIPP IS LOVEEEEEE!!!!!

2009-10-25T12:00:00.007+08:00

Im back from BKK trip.
4days ago, we are so excited about our trip.
one blink of an eye, our 3days 2nights trip has ended. ):
before that, we told each other we are leaving the sad world with broken hearts.
and now, we dont even feel like coming back.
though it really heals our heart.
at the very least during these days, i clearly can see what i really want already.

We had extreme fun there. didnt get the chance to eat A&W though.
its shopping for one whole day.
that is what i called life. hahaha.
everything is cheap like dont know what. even cab fares are cheap like crazy.
we will proceed on with many photos to let them speak for me.
some photos are still on the process to uploading.
please be patient.
i'll just put a link to my facebook. (:

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2009-10-15T01:49:00.004+08:00

Finally i've received my contact lenses!!!!

hehehehe~

been days since i last update my blog.

i've been trying to stand up on my own and with the help from my dear friends.

and when im standing up, he came and push me again.

thats when i fell really hard last night.

and yes.. i cried again. but i've decided my decision already.

i decided to give up totally this rs. be friends or not, let him decide that.

because the words are so hurtful, the yellings are painful too.

but i bear with it. i hold on strong trying to yell back & showed attitude as well.

and, i did it. i dont feel good at all.

but im gald i made up this decision with the help of Constance Jie.

even though he & i ended, you are still like a sister to me.

not forgetting dear Eunice & Weifeng hanging out at Yishun Damp.

chattings, songs changing, joking about.

im gald i have you two during my lowest point of time.

also never forgetting Ah hao & Tracy darling & her hubby.

for always being here entertaining my life.

Darling, you know what im waiting for.

and you see that im standing strong now too.

all because i wanted a better life. to move on smoothly.

the last but not least, i just wanna say goodbye to you Clement.
for the last, i'll call you this way.
baby, you have been the best during our happy days.
we gave each other a choice to move on and to give up this rs.
it has been a good past and i know i'll remember you forever.
be it the laughter's or the tears we shared.
its all over now. do lead your life well.
look after your family well too. do give a hand to your parents if they need you.
they aren't young anymore if you do realize that.
its time to grow up for you.
be a more sensible big boy. think for your own better future.
love yourself more. don't go back to what you did in the past before me.
the whole world is not about alcohol & girls only.
if someday you came to understand why i say all this,
its for your own good.
whether or not have i changed you during the past 1year4months, i dont know.
but i know we go thru alot but still ended this way is not what we really want.
and the song at the bottom is for you.
take good care & goodbye, love.

<<最幸福的事>>
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你撑着雨伞借我那次
已经足够我记得一辈子
我懂後来你不是不坚持
爱情本来就没万无一失

泪水离开了你的手指
那不如让它流在这信纸
我想女孩子最贴心的是
让爱的人选结束的方式

我最幸福的事当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是童话故事
不能够永远依赖着王子
才慢慢认识只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心为难你解释

我最幸福的事当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人在左边心口保留位置是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕都微笑着静止

我最幸福的事牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起的事那天和你傻笑着认识是最幸福的事

2009-10-10T15:18:00.002+08:00

partyworld ktv last night with my Buddies.
i sang mostl sad songs, i nearly cried, i shouted with my voice.
but i had fun with you all.
thanks to mika, wf, bw & wj.

and i heard he got drunk last night,
i bet he had alot of fun.
also heard he's leaving tonight already.
our conversation has been really cold.
we dont even sound as friends.
and i somehow felt its drifting far far apart.

maybe its about time to stop myself from reminiscing the past.
its about time to move forward,
slowly one step a time.
goodbye my love.

2009-10-09T01:11:00.003+08:00

it has ended. and i wished him all the best for his future.

Be more sensible for the next one.

give her the best. treasure her more.

dont take things for granted anymore.

never raised your hand to the next her too. ever.

give your best shot to keep the next her with you.

but you must remb never to make rush decision again.

becus you never know if she will come back again or not.

you understand?

i may never be back again.

but i'll remb the happiest times you gave.

forget the bad ones, remb the best ones. (:

i loved you once, and i did it many times.

but now, its time to stop.

so now, im healing myself.

healing that little shadow hiding behind my heart.

please do take care and move on for my sake.

take plenty of rest, prepare plenty of energy for your trip.

and if there is always a problem,

i'll try to still be there for you, if you ever need me, someday..

please be strong, dear "C.W"

words spread fast and yes, im all alone again.

thank you friends for caring.

i know i act like im strong but yet you all see that im actually weak.

tears are shedding, and its still shedding now.

but people, im really fine.

just dont remind me anymore. thanks (:

silent nights kills me.

flashbacks are really hurtful too.

2009-09-27T14:14:00.003+08:00

another 25 more days to BKK trip with dear Eunice!!! Yeah!! (:

cant wait to fly there.

been cooping up at home for so long.

i feel like a rotten apple soon. haha.

but starting work tomorrow.

im more then excited to start my new job. (:

good luck and work hard J.bibi ~

sometimes.. i do wonder about how to go about and compare.

and finally i found a fruit which i can compare to.

at first, you're a fresh pinky red juicy apple.

the ones that everyone feel tempted to eat you up.

when times slowly goes by,

you turned into a soon rotten apple which lack of fresh color and no longer juicy.

which is being thrown away to aside and died of loneliness.

somehow i felt its a thought comparing my r/s to this apple.

i felt that im being thrown aside.

dont kissed as much, dont held hands even when we're out.

dont even mention making out.

i somehow felt like a rotten apple which is bored of looking at.

and someday i'll just die of loneliness. LOL (just joking abt this)

i only felt a one year r/s can brings out a totally not fresh lives of us.

and im beginning to start thinking..

its only the first year for god sake.

how are we going to go through to the next many years thats coming by?

i dont even wanna think abt "our" marriage anymore, let alone talk abt it.

somehow.. its just not right at all. or maybe i say i dont feel right afterall.

has the feelings tone down? or has the freshness of the r/s being washed down the drain?

i've tried so hard to come to this stage.

and all i've got is this outcome when i've finally reached this stage.

i do really wonder is it worth coming this far?

what am i trying so hard for?

i do think when i've finally felt the coldness there.

i thought i could do something different to make the attention turned to me.

but it just seems like.. i have to entertain myself for all the while?

i no longer understand how it works or how it should goes like.

it just felt so tasteless already.

thinking of all this makes me headache ah.

got to go collect my work bottoms from the tailor later.

and maybe meeting feng out for a talk.

im already suffocating.

2009-09-23T12:01:00.003+08:00

being neglecting my blog for some time already.

firstly, i found a job. YEAH!!

secondly, i got in for the job. DOUBLE YEAHS!!

and im going for training today. feeling very excited.

provided the anuties outside very noisy. esp the eat microphone one.

and so i woke up early.
Good Luck to me later..

19th Sept

celebrated weifeng 20th bday that day.

a present from Queens Couture by Eunice, BinWei, Waichun, Zoey & me.

our dear eunice got bird shit bad luck that day. LOL.

and we headed to Turf City for Steamboat.

we ate super alot. esp prawns. LOL

think about it now, i feel like vomitting. hahahaha.

after this, headed to car wash then to Damp to hang out.

chatted and catch up the old times.

theres laughter, shy-ness too. (:

but it was nice catching up.. miss those days.

the next is K singing. Yeah.. (:

22 Sept

catch up with Liu Jing & Hai Xia for some work search.

headed to town to look for Tracy.

and i bought a pair of heels for my work too.

from what i've checked, i have alot colored heels, but no black ones.

and black ones are usually sandals. zzz

had dinner tog after her work off.

looks like she's happy there. (:

we could always catch up during lunch. hehehe.

and im off to do my stuffs before preparing for training. tatas~

2009-09-15T00:30:00.002+08:00

And i've quitted my job two days back.

crap place. NB!! work 11am-11pm. KILL people ah?

now at home shake leg for the time being.

relax awhile while sending resumes. (:

Shopping at Town with Tracy darling today.

my camera's dead before i went out.

and i cant find my charger. WTH!!

she said she got pimple too. very big. LOL.

meeting up at far east to fill up my timesheet.

waiting to get my money.

Head to Paragon to dine in at Sushi Tei. (:

Her treat for the day. Next time mine.

shopped for her baby clothes. baby clothes are so cute.

its so tempting that i feel like buying for little Zel.

Tracy bought super lots of stuffs for the day.

baby clothes, skincare from Laneige, shoes from Nine West, Chocs from Royce.

her paper bag even tore. so funny lor.

i bought Vivi Magazine, Chocs from Royce, 2 Tops from Mango.

and those heels killed me at the end of day.

but, im happy for the day with her & the stuffs i've got. (:

meet up soon darling ~~

its time to go home to shift even more of my stuffs back tomorrow.

i miss daddy. i must give him a treat since im so free these days.

and of cus, to meet up with my grandma, bro and sis to recontract lines.

Wednesday meet up Baby sis & little Zel.

Breakfast & company her for the day. So wont be so bored. (:

im off to surfing net now.. GoodNight and Bye.

2009-09-11T01:01:00.003+08:00

i have been so lazy to blog these days.
anyway.. here i am, updating past few days outings.

recently:

1.caught Final Destination 4 with tracy darling, her hubby and her friends.
it was a crap show. as always, its predictable.

2.Dine in with AhKun & Eric at HK cafe for dinner/supper.

3.Crappy days at work as usual.

4.Bad stomach cramps caught with me a day ago at work till now. SUCKS!

Today Outing:

finally caught up with my dear cousin, Jason for lunch.
i told him about ah ma and he had tears in his eyes in Swensens!!! OMG.
but i nearly cried myself too. guess the both of us should go pay her a visit soon.
we chatted real lots. the feeling is so good catching up with a relative.
bought a dress too. hehehe.
he's gonna be my shopping partner the next time round too.
adding into my shopping mates list. (:at 5 plus, we parted our ways.
i head to Orchard Central to look for Tracy darling.
Bought her LongJohn for dinner. Helped her iron abit of clothes.
then that DAJIE come. damn it. and she stayed the whole day!!
so i called up BinWei for a movie. since he's bored too. LOL.
while waiting, its shopping trips for me again.
i bought sleepwear and 2pairs of underwear. LOL.
walking the whole level of Orchard Central. its so boring!!!!
so big yet nothing. lucky BinWei came fast.
So caught Blood Ties today.
another crappy show. not very nice. not very scary too. zz

photos of the day:

Cousin Jason and i (:

my shopping treats:

good nights!!

2009-08-24T14:46:00.004+08:00

Its a tiring monday. as monday will always be blue to me.

Lucky me i've got no work today. rest rest~
and i slept straight for 12hours. good life eh? LOL
super long didnt sleep like that.
darling tracy birthday coming soon. (:
remind myself gotta sleep early before the night we go out.
and meeting my Cousin soon for a meal out. (: i miss him~

Read thru baby Eunice post last night.
It was really touching abt what she said of Sophia and the rest of us.
Best friends are really like diamonds.
looks fragile so you will hold it tight in your hands making sure it dont fall.
again, they are really really precious.
i dont have alot of gfs comparing to the guys,
but i really appreciate everyone of these ppl in my life.
they are always there for me when im down.
though i always tend to keep my own thoughts in mind,
at least i know whom i'll be able to share my down mood with.
they protect me like im a baby to them.
for the girls..
they laugh with me, share stupid thinkings,
drive me back home though they lived faraway,
talked abt the bad guys that intrude into our lives..
share nice shopping treats with me..
talked thru till i reach home after a late movie..
tell me abt bfs whom done me wrong, helped me thru..
i love them. i really do.
for the guys..
they're willing to spend the night talking shits to me,
companying me for late dinner,
send me back home till i reached my doorstep,
pray hard that i got a job soon tog with me,
nagging abt camp stuffs, having fun tog that i'll never forget,
we quarrel becus of a gf, but after time past, we're back tog as one again.
there are some silly stuffs happening, but still..

Best Friends will always be Best Friends.

Eunice, Weifeng, BinWei, Waichun, Wilfred..
from secondary school till now. they are the most precious one.

Xueli, the girl whom grew up with me tog till now.
share with me abt her flings during past.
tells me the bads that's happening.
i still owe her friend a meal. zzz

the new friends made..
tracy, ivy, meixi..
the noisy ones whom keep talking to me nonstop.
making me laugh till ppl outside looked in.
tell me lame jokes, willing to hear abt stuffs i hate abt my bf.

there are many more.
but!! the most precious one are my family.

Daddy is the best one.
he worked hard for us, treats us like a best friend too.
i love him as much though i dont spend much time with him.
my bros never fails to give me a shoulder massage when i need one,
they are annoying at times but they are always my best listening ear.
my sis & nainai is the best gf i had. though we lived far away from one another,
they will always be reminded by me.
Mummy has never been a good mom to us,
but she still goes thru the pain bringing us out here to life.
as for my piggy bf, he has never being the sweetest,
but he's the one that tells me from right to wrong,
give me tears but holds me tight to him again,
we quarrel for the most nonsensical things but he always try to give in.
he never spends much time with me, but im glad i have him with me.
he knows me well from inside out, i can never hide anything from him.
he's that best friend which i love & hate at the same time.

Baby sister, Constance jie, she always hear me talk my shits abt Clement.
she goes thru my pain when im at my lowest till late.
we got a small trip to bring little Zel to. (:

lastly i love everyone. to those that i mention and did not.
imagine how wonderful this world could be..
and i still keep saying it sucks. LOL.
even so, i'll live my life to the fullest. (:

2009-08-20T14:25:00.002+08:00

im thinking of opening a blogshop lor.

should i or should i not?

give me comments on whether should i or not? (:

baby is sleeping soundly now.

guess he's really tired.

i think i wanna take a short nap too.

tatas~

2009-08-18T23:47:00.006+08:00

Sunday shopping was great with Buddies, Eunice & BW.

and thats how i ended up broke. thanks alot ah!!

but i had alot of great bargains. LOL.

its alittle messy. but i got myself 3 tops, one shorts, one jumper.
not to forget magazine & curling thing from Sasa.
ate in at Bugis too. i nearly left my phone behind. but lucky me.

Home Sweet Home.

today was one bad sales day.
so... i talk alot shits during work with my colleague. hahaha.
its so crazy that i laugh so loud that ppl outside looked in.
anyway, one more day of work and im off again. (:
tmr will be breakfast at keppel bay again before to work. YEAH!!

good nights.

2009-08-16T12:28:00.002+08:00

recent programmes ~

- caught Orphan with dear Tracy darling.
it was so exciting and thrilling.

- working all my way for straight 8 days, which is killing enough for me.
and it made me have the feeling of flying.

- in between the 8 days, caught Gi Joe with Tracy darling again.
It's a great show indeed.

- for today programme, gonna meet up Eunice & Bw for another buddy outing.
sadly, weifeng cant come with us.

and!!! im suppose to be able to go to Korea,
but due to covering christmas, my leave isn't approved!!!
im so sad that i cant keep Eunice baby company. =(

and i've waited till 5am in the morning for someone to be back on a friday night,
and now.. idk. i wanna hide in my blanket.
i wished i never waked up again.
and i wished my tears, please dont come rushing out again.
because of boredom, because i wanna prevent quarrels,
i keep having programmes to entertain me.
and yes, he's asking to let go soon.
maybe soon, i might just go single i think.

2009-08-07T14:48:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 1st YEAR 2nd MONTH !!!!!!
and it's still going to keep counting on.
i love you, baby ღ

its my off again today. weee. (:
later meeting dear Eunice for my hair extensions & dye.
i love hair treatments. hehe.
had a very bad nightmare this morning.
its so bloody and disgusting.
but i do remb one name in it.
Shawn Koh i think. who the fxxx is that?
anyway, baby sms woke me up.
so its kinda relived.

wonder when's commission coming. im waiting...~
and its shopping time again.
meeting Eunice & Weifeng soon.
bestfriends will always be there. love.

im going back to my dramas again.
see ya peeps~

2009-08-04T23:20:00.002+08:00

shopping definitely kills me.
i've bought 2 items from Ageha japanese webby.
its pretty and cute. (:
love it to bits. hehehe.

i love their hair too. awwwww.
anyway there's work tmr. gotta go to bed.
good nights.

2009-07-23T02:06:00.004+08:00

haven't been updating.

1st, im busy at work till late.
2nd, i fall sick for days already ):

anyway..
i think its last thursday that i went out with Buddy Eunice & Feng.
for facial and shopping.
Eunice bought the most.
i only bought lashes from Sasa.
we had a good round in Orchard Central.
and bought nice undies and one sleepwear set. (:
nothing much. only the watch shop caught my eyes.
its all about Bling Bling. haha.
next trip is to Bugis and Steamboat!! Weeee~
im looking forward to it.

and the sickly story of mine.
down with a high fever, sore throat, cough and abit of diarrhea. ):
bad isnt it?
seen doctor 2 times. waste money.
it has been the 4th coming to 5th day already.
and im still not well. hai.
2days not in work already.
i feel bad about it you know.
i miss my Tracy & Ivy JieJie at work lor.

the topic i dont wanna mention..
it leads me to a bigger disappointment.
what is mutual respect? can anyone please explain to me abt it?
what is mutual trust too?
i no longer know all these anymore.
sometimes, my hopes are dashed.
im all shattered & broken.
i gave chances again & again.
but as always, its the same.
maybe, i never care again.
lets see how it goes then.

2009-07-12T12:33:00.002+08:00

working at Sheer Romance is great.
feet quite tiring one.
but so far, colleagues and crowd there are good.
time passes fast too. (:
the only thing is need to remb prices.
quite troublesome. zzzz

its FEP that im working at.
so i'm spending while working too.
shit right? $$ fly away. damn. got to control it.

anyway, i'll be staying permanently at Baby's place for the time being.
and yes, he's really excited about it.
pray hard we dont go any wrong "again".
slowly, im gonna shift things in.
my shoes, clothes. think abt it now, its alot. ^.^"'

facial soon with dear Eunice.
and dear buddies, im really shifting out of woodlands. ):
but still will meet up k? :) love buddies.

2009-07-06T14:13:00.003+08:00

Went shopping at town with Baby & Mika.

Sweet Mika came and drove us to town. (:

The new LV shop in ION is beautiful man.
bought only two tees in fareast. ):
and one of it became a rugged cloth now.
due to color mixture. Fxxk it!! ):
lucky its a budget spree. haha.

Finally, im starting work tomorrow. (:
its real long hours.
for the sake of money, Work Hard Jessica!!
All the best to me.

and its always love that makes me smile

2009-07-02T18:21:00.002+08:00

DOUBLE YEAHS TO ME!!!!!!!!!!1
i've called and checked about one job.
and...... *drum rolls*

The lady asked me to go for training on Saturday.
then if training goes well,
i can start work immediately.
although its not related to beauty.
but its a swim wear shop.
and the pay is quite okie. =)
so, good for me.

thanks to the god whom hears me while im praying to it just now. :)

2009-06-30T18:03:00.001+08:00

because i dont feel good at all..
):

2009-06-24T22:15:00.004+08:00

Sent in two resumes currently ytd.

wish me luck getting in either one.
of cause, im not giving up yet.
still gotta try my best in searching for job.
加油 to JessicaBibi !! (:

Movie caught:
baby is so noisy after movie.
has always been. haha.
but he's cute in some ways.
LOVE.

2009-06-23T18:06:00.005+08:00

Eunice Birthday @ Mono

had our hair done up in City Plaza before heading to mono.
Eunice & i are the first to reach.
And one thing bad. My heel split open due to long time never wear.
i end up walking around without my heels on.

The group of Girls

Buddy Feng & Eunice

Feng & Me

Happy Birthday to our lovable Eunice

Cheryl with her start of bidding
And.. I won the bid with 一万 !!
Eunice with her 谢词 -.- thanking her parents & all.

Eunice & Ts , Loving

i don't remb this part. but sure is hilarious.

there are many memorable happenings too.
we all got high & crazy that's why.
we all don't wish to remb & talk about the bad happenings again.
but dear Eunice, Happy 20th Birthday to you.
i've had my fun with all of you.
the next will be me (:

2009-06-15T01:37:00.005+08:00

went to work as usual today.

ended early and met up with buddies, E & F
and yes, our shopping meet ups.
like finally after sometime ago. ^-^

we shopped till our legs drop dead.
feeling hungry at the same time.
talking & laughing non-stop.
it's always fun being with them.
dine at Fish & Co. Yummy dinner that filled our stomach.

many pictures taken, but will upload only a few.

The CamWhore sessions:

i had fun with the both of you.
looking forward to E's birthday party this coming weekend.
lovable buddies see you there. ^^

lastly, its me. Good Night.

2009-06-10T13:23:00.003+08:00

i want a teacup yorkie puppy so badly.

but wait till i end this stupid job first.
so i've got more time for the little puppy.
a belated happy birthday for dear Bin Wei, though i wished you already.

7th June 09

A Happy 1st Year Anniversary to dear Baby & Me.
Even though there are quarrels most of the time,
we will still gonna overcome it isn't it?
im still looking forward to the next year with you. LOVE (:

Movies Caught Recently

A treat from Baby & i, to Baby's parents & sister last night at HK cafe.
got a little bad feeling cause baby's mom didn't ate full. ewww.
maybe the next time round.
hmmm. gonna have steamboat at work later. Double Yeahs!!
im going to go help out for the steamboat lunch later. (:
Sunday shopping with Dear Eunice & Weifeng Bud.
LoveLove.

2009-06-02T00:09:00.002+08:00

and finally i sent the email to my ladyboss earlier in the afternoon.
she replied by calling me. which gave me a shock.
but after the shock, but its such a relieve after that.
and she says she will look into the matter.
and now i'm searching for new beauty counter jobs.
more towards sales. can earn much more then my current job lor.
which really sucks lah, have to admit. LOL
so ladies, if you're working in skincare line, please let me know. =)

hmmm.. thinking back awhile ago.
i missed alot of my fun times during weekends.
off to drinking & happily clubbing.
how i wished i could find more girls to enjoy weekends & off days tog.
ewwwww.

current mask process is done. finally.
and soon its off to bed soon. yawns ~
nighty.

2009-06-01T13:56:00.002+08:00

finally the month of May is gone.
here comes month of June.
still waiting for pay to come. hoping they don't delay.
i need shopping badly.
not to forget my best partners, Eunice & Feng ♥♥
looking forward to dear Eunice b'day party.
i bet she hopes for the day to come fast too.
hahaha. soon the June babies of Eunice & Binwei is turning 20.
that's really fast. meanwhile, i'll enjoy my 19th youth to the max. (:
and 1st year anniversary with my dear boy is coming soon. =)

stuffs about the other day...

caught Night at the museum 2 with fat baby.
he seriously need to slim down alot. really.
everything keeps going in that mouth of his. tsktsk.

2009-05-25T00:11:00.003+08:00

finally its off day again.

6 days more to pay day. (:
meet up with dear eunice for facial and shopping today.
budget shopping you hear me? LOL
im near to broke already lah.
next month worse. birthdays to attend, 1st year to celebrate.
all money money. #@&#^# hell. hahahaha.
shopping was great with eunice.
weifeng met up with us awhile and left after that.
its been a long time since i last seen him.
bought nothing much.
a present for little zelene, a pair of heels & a dress.
there's nothing much to buy.
but got tons of pictures. will upload soon after editing. (:
im off to bed soon. LOVE.

just a review..

2009-05-20T23:27:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wish it was on some weekdays and some weekends.
i dont know if its me whom cant be contented,
or is it you or maybe just us?
sometimes i feel so confused.
i just really hope some answers will pop out right infront of me.
saves me from thinking and spinning.
they say can see that i really love you.
yea. they are right. but can you see that?
there are thousands of questions. but i can never finish asking it.
nah. who cares. love supposed to be complicated isn't it?
but the only thing i've just realized,
im not the happiest girl in the world.
sometimes, i wished.. i just wished i could let go of everything.
i just hope you will look me once in silence telling me you love me so too.

2009-05-13T15:44:00.003+08:00

didnt report to work today.
have to use my sunday off to cover today. NB
all thanks to my stupid ankle. ):
got a sprain for nothing.
and i didnt even feel anything from the start till yesterday.
woke up with a sharp pain on my ankle.
hacking care, thought its just nothing..
went shopping & catch a movie with baby at Tampines.
caught X-men, bought a scarf and a shoe bag for bro birthday present.
headed home with baby after that.
the pain gets worse at night so baby decided to bring me to the doc if today still like that.
and who knows, this morning, i cant even stand properly!!
not even stand still. i cant even really drag my feet like yesterday.
): thats how i ended up not reporting to work.
im trying very best to go to work tomorrow.
unless the pain gets worse. i cant help.

seeing the chinese doctor just now really made baby laughed badly.
because i cant stand the pain and i ended up crying when the doctor just touched my leg only.
baby said im a PUSSY!!!!! cant even stand that little pain.
yet i can stand my tattoo pain. i am really crazy. haha.
everyone laughed when i started crying. haha.
they say lucky never put needle, or else i'll scream my head off. LOL
but thanks baby for being there to hold my hand tightly thru out,
and holding my hand up the cab,
and of cus piggy back me up and down the stairs till we get home. (:
Love him the best though he's nonsense to me sometimes. haha.

so im off to rest now.

2009-05-10T21:42:00.002+08:00

im breaking down soon man!!
continuous working for 8 days kills me.
i nearly dont want turn up for work lor.
but finally off day is tomorrow.
and im meeting dear eunice for hair dye and extension.
i simply cant resist long hair.
i miss my long hair. not regretting that i cut my hair short.
but i want my long hair back. ewww. (: LOL
trying to take a PH off for baby to go shopping tog too.
and soon im going to bed.
im so dead tired lah. nighty.

2009-04-27T11:20:00.002+08:00

back to work in again.
commission still sucks.
i bet my pay for this month sucks too. LOL
but im still looking forward to my payday.
but its time to save, save & save.
will be spending on...
body art, hair extending, body care.
ohh.. not to forget my pretty Eunice too.
we will be off to having facials and hair treatments done tog.
then the gathering of my secondary school mates BBQ.
this one gonna be a fun one. no more restrictions.
all over 18 already. hahaha.

and abt the body art..
why care abt marriage? i still can flaunt my pretty back by then.
who cares what ppl think of me.
at least im myself and im happy by then. (=

its time to be off showering. time to meet baby.
love.

2009-04-17T09:21:00.002+08:00

when i was told to love you,

you smashed all my hopes.

when i knew i could put at ease loving you,

i know something bounds to happen.

and you told me, "Im sorry for letting you cry"

i got a little soft but can i still put at ease loving you?

i really dont know.

you meant everything to me.

but im not going to follow the exact footsteps behind you again.

this is what i know.

but still, baby.. i love you.

2009-04-16T09:28:00.003+08:00

ah ma passed away already.

sad for her. but at the same time..

i wished she go peacefully.

only family knows why we wished her to go soon.

it will be a heartpain for her even if she stays.

when tears are filled, pain comes in next.

will you ever stay true? i dont know.

i would wished i never knew you at all.

was it a mistake that i made?

you dont look thru our pictures.

but you look thru "their" pictures.

maybe im sensitive. maybe i am.

will we last? im really puzzled now.

i leave our footsteps to that.

not wanting to count any more footsteps.

i'll just let it fly when the wind comes.

i seriously need a shoulder now.

2009-04-08T12:39:00.003+08:00

have been hanging out with dear eunice and bin wei these days.
i've got nothing better to do. kill time only lor.
baby cousin passed away. feels abit wasted. he's only 21.
missed baby much too.
work sucks. not much commission coming in yet.
they said wanna transfer me to Shangri-la for training and work.
to help out, as they need help there.
advantage is i get to earn more commission as there will be alot of hotel guests.
disadvantage, its far lah. orchard you know.
i dont even know how to get there. ppl there are as kind? i dont know. really.
but they should give me my transport fee at the very least.
i've got no choice, i think.
going out to meet up with baby soon.
and tonight he's gonna dota with eunice. kill me please.
if only lappy was here. i can watch my hk dramas. ewww.
and a Happy 10th Month to dearest baby love.

sometimes love seems far even when you're here.
the heart still feels lonely at bad times.
someday, i wished you know how i really feel.

2009-04-02T11:07:00.002+08:00

and yes. im sick again. down with this really bad headache.
its killing inside my whole skull i think. LOL
off to see the doctor in awhile.
anyway, first day of work is nothing like usual.
but glad that i went to work yesterday and MC for today.
sucks lah me. ohh. and..
many thanks to baby for buying me 2 tops yesterday.
love him to bits. now we've got 3 same tops. LOL

and yes. how could i forget. the shopping trip last saturday.
shopping was boring. but with them around, they made me laugh alot.
baby bought a pair of shoe.. again. and i bought the Fancl Tense Up EX.
its my 4th time drinking it. tasty. (:
the 4 of us caught the movie 12 Rounds that day too.
its a must watch. very exciting for me. haha.
i got to go. byebye.

2009-03-30T14:22:00.002+08:00

feeling pain & aches when i woke up in the morning yesterday.

feeling like the fever symptom is here.

like weak in the whole body.

i felt its my own fault, cus i slept really really late the past few days.

and when evening came, when chatting with eunice,

i took temperature and baby says i got slight fever ler.

so rest instead. didnt ate much though.

it was tough going thru the night.

it was really really cold. i had alot of dreams.

my body is stiff like dont know what.

i felt pain all over man. its killing me.

i woke up like every hour lor. which is very killing for me ):

when baby woke up in the morning, he touch my body.

i guess he felt its super hot.

i cant feel anything. seriously. only feeling cold.

so when he ask am i having a fever still, i say dont know.

took once more temp. 39.1 degrees!!!!

rest till i woke up. no more fever.

but that bad feeling of the fever coming back still lingers on. fuck man!!

wish me get well soon. LOVE.

2009-03-27T23:26:00.004+08:00

last minute meet up with dear Eunice.

had dinner at pasta mania.

caught a movie too.

the movie is so funny.

should catch it lah.

CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC

after that, went back home get PSP for baby.

and im HOME SWEET HOME.

now enjoying my mask. wohooo.

looking forward for tomorrow shopping.

nights everyone.

2009-03-27T14:53:00.002+08:00

tmr shopping with gwen, her bf & mine.

i hope mine dont come out pattern.

otherwise, i'll be really pissed. zz

been reading forums lately again..

and msn-ing. bi went back to his dota-ing again.

hate it, but have to bear with it.

using forums to keep me company lor.

lucky got bi sister to keep me company these few nights.

talking abt my rs with bi & forums topics. hahaha

think the both of us really got nothing better to do.

usually at night.

dont sleep nothing to do.. its thinking abt nonsensical stuffs again.

so i gotta keep myself occupied.

so fast.. im starting work soon. nevermind.

working is good. got $$

got $$ means can shop even more!!! (:

gotta go for medical check ups for work. sian. hate the long queues one leh.

and the long wait for the report. arghhh.

thinking back.. i've been with baby for 9months already.

3 more months to our 1st year.

abt 5 more months to him going away to australia for abt 3mths ):

yes. tell myself.. im gonna wait for him patiently.

keep myself occupied with work, shopping and life.

im going to enjoy my life to the fullest this 3 months when he is away.

hahaha. (:

LOVE, Jessica

2009-03-24T19:13:00.003+08:00

been thinking.. should i?

should i do my full back?

its still so tempting to me. ewww!!

trying to get baby permission now.

i hope he agrees to it. (:

watching tv, doing exercise, and surfing net today.

im trying hard to lose those cellulites i have now.

so good luck to me. (: lovelove.

2009-03-24T12:07:00.002+08:00

yesterday wasnt spent waiting endlessly for darling.

went over to bi sister place to take care of little zelene.

as she got to teach piano lessons later on.

we spent like..

watching barney, do coloring, and playing alphabets cards.

when bi sister played the piano,

a feeling suddenly came to me.

touching feeling. so touching that i feel like tears coming out of me.

LOL. but she played very well lah.
little zelene got alot of talents too.

she can color well. unlike other 2 years old kid.

she scribbles all. but, some parts she colored well.

i spent alomost my whole day there.

having dinner and chatting to bi sister when she's free. (:

till 9pm, its Home Sweet Home.

♥

2009-03-22T12:52:00.005+08:00

went out shopping with bi last evening.

he bought himself a pair of shoes, money-clip wallet

and we bought a Barney soft toy for cute little Zelene.

then caught a movie right after. a little way too late then other people to catch this.

our first 3D movie together.

he promised to company me for another shopping.

but thought about it over for quite some time.

actually what bi said was right.

i shouldnt keep spending money on so many stuffs i dont really need.

especially when the economy is down.

i should save more instead. but..
shopping keeps me alive leh. z

perhaps spending a little lesser instead? (:

later after dinner catching another movie.

love (:

2009-03-21T00:01:00.002+08:00

while waiting for my show to load,

lets do some update.

early morning woke up tog with my pig.

went out tog, drop him off to report back for duty.

i head home straight afterwards.

wanted to sleep more, but dont seems to be able to.

so, start off with my big house cleaning.

starting from my room..

cleared the bags that i didnt want anymore,

rearranged my wardrobe,

hanging all clothes where it should be and clearing unwanted clothes,

changed my bedsheets, vacumm the floor.

then hours later, sis and her maid arrived.

they start off with the wiping of windows,

im stuck with my drawers full of stuffs!!

placing the boxes in order, throwing away alot of stuffs,

rearranging my skincare, purfumes & makeup

kill me please. i've got alot of stuffs and i end up throwing alot.

until i've packed then i realised i've got alot of necklace.

bi called in the middle of my packing,

and he said he dont have to buy me any necklace since i've got alot. z

cleaning my room was one tough job.

the amount of magazines i have,

its everywhere. my wardrobe space, dad's room, living room, bro room.

everywhere you go, you see them.

and i can only resort to one last method,

pack them all up, sell to karang guni. no choice. ):

packing, cleaning and placing back is easy job.

im still imagining when i shift house..

how many boxes will be able to contain all my stuffs.

my clothes i think, give me 2 boxes also not enough.

*dont scare myself* when time comes then say. -.-''

from 8am start, only finished at 7plus evening cleaning & clearing the whole house.

the word for me today, "THROW!!"

award myself with a full body scrub for all the hard work today.

thanks to my 3 siblings and the maid, DanDan Jie (: love

im missing baby right now. shall see him in the morning.

im back to my show then off to bed. bye.

2009-03-19T15:03:00.003+08:00

all thanks to Gwen.

im currently attached to http://www.mysoju.com/ for the addict.

cus i got the addiction for Hong Kong dramas.

especially Forensics and law shows.

current show watching,

Forensic Heroes 2

im gone.

2009-03-18T11:37:00.003+08:00

Miss Red visited me again today.

Once again, giving me pains and numbness. Damn it.

i was suppose to go back school get something today.

but i woke up feeling blur and something wrong.

until i saw my draft. then i remb. zz

no one remind me abt it. haha.

later gotta go back EV to fill up some application form thing.

looks like, mine is a 6 days week. 10-7 as usual.

17th March 09

had bbq sessions at Jasmine meimei place last night.

food sucks at first. later on, it gets better.

alot of kids(meimei friends) LOL.

they had their game session. splashing water bombs.

i think my last bbq session were my class bbq.

overall, slightly fun but abit bored.

went home at 10pm after that.

16th March 09

went back to EV for some visiting. 2 new IA students.

from my course april batch.

seeing them learn makes me think back of the 3 of us.

when we first started. LOL

anyway, after that, went shopping with Gwen, her BF and me

eli was sick. so she cant come.

she missed all the fun man! LOL

we had fun buying alot of stuffs.

i always end my shopping never empty handed.

brought:

a pair of pretty heels.

2 jacket, gwen got one same as mine, 5pairs of panties

a pair of 3/4 berms, 2 hairbands, 2 belts, 6 nail polish

haha ♥♥

next time shop again Gwen!!

gotta go now. bye.

2009-03-14T16:16:00.002+08:00

yes yes. my blog is rotting soon.

i dont have the mood to blog these days lah.

more of rotting around whenever i can.

which i am now. LOL

attachment ended 6 days ago. waiting for april to come.

and then, that sick feeling i have past few weeks ago,

is finally happening. i woke up with a bad dry throat feeling.

then, down with a bad cough. seriously my voice now is like super man!!

dont call and talk to me unless its really urgent.

have been trying different medicine these few days.

better hope it works. so i can save up seeing the doctor maybe tmr?

i need to get well in order to go shopping with gwen on Monday..

shopping is like so important currently you know. i need to get new shoes.

which i just bought a few bras and 2 bags online. zz

you can imagine and see that the bad economy isnt affecting me.

the people should thank me for still shopping-ing. LOL

GET WELL SOON!! (to myself)

2009-03-05T23:10:00.003+08:00

had been a busy week for me.

the sudden rushing of projects and completion of presentation slides.
teachers wants it fast. its killing us.
but lucky we decide to start early.
until yesterday, had a relaxing shopping day with bi.
he sure bought more then me. LOL.
quarelled as soon as we reach our destination.
but fine after awhile. tiring day indeed.
chatted with bi and his mum awhile. then head off to bed.

a few more days later, im ending my attachment. :)
means a long holiday for me for the time being.
seriously i need to relax and chill awhile.
then april officially start work. its earning money time.
rainy seasons this time. good to sleep in.
and im missing my darling bi. but im going to sleep soon.

nights. love.

2009-02-20T22:02:00.002+08:00

okay. im back for some updates. a wordy one.

its work, work and work.
hardly tog with baby. he keep on sailing.
i keep on working. but we try to make time to be tog. LOL
finally tmr off day ler. (:
hoping our plan goes well for tmr.
tmr morning, wake up meet up with baby for breakfast after he booked out.
then, home sweet home with him, and continue sleep again. haha.
we need to gain back our energy.
if we manage to wake up in the evening, out we go.
shopping & dinner tog.
has been sometime since we last went out to shop.

and im trying hard to do online shopping.
but the damn thing is.. i cant see any pictures on the blogshops.
how to spend money to buy clothes!!
save up better bah. haha.

one more good news.
im continuing to work at EssenceVale Spa after attachment.
can learn & earn money at the same time.why not?
1 week 3 days off, kind of slack, got commission if have lots of customer.
got nice colleagues too.
but baby is complaining cus its far for him to come pick me.
it sound abit upsetting for him to do that.
but i tell him alot of shits to convince him of my future & all. LOL
Love him to bits for listening to me.

i got the urge to go travelling tog with baby lah.
wait for him to end his NS, we save money tog, go have a fun holiday tog.
Singapore is so boring. go anywhere also about the same. zz
im off to shower and to bed.
gotta wake up super early. i've got some pictures to upload.
but another day perhaps. love.

2009-02-09T20:32:00.005+08:00

7th feb 09

HAPPY 8TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY to baby & me.

end work, slacked & talked to eli.
met up with bin wei & eunice outside causeway.
headed to eunice place then to bin wei.
learn to play mahjong. (:
then poker & then Mac for supper till early morning.

Eunice & me

baby called me so suddenly at 1am when im playing my game.
and he's back from sailing. i miss him so much man.
he wanted me to stay over after that.
cabbed to Changi Naval Base to pick him & his friend up.
headed back to pasir ris.
HOME SWEET HOME at 6am or so.
showered & off to bed at 7am.
been really a long time since i last slept that 'early'.

yesterday, slept thru till 3plus pm woke up.
and im still in his arms tight. *sweet*
actually wanna go out and stock up my skincare.
but all baby's fault. just joking.
cus his family having steamboat dinner tog.
maybe tmr then stock up after work or so.
and Valentine's coming.
i've got to work. that sucks.

2009-01-27T23:03:00.003+08:00

firstly,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

and i have to work through my CNY. sad case.
but at least got customer lah.
did many ear candling for baby cousins & aunt.
its time to let my family try my skills too :)
and here are some pictures updates during the CNY dinner with EV ppl.

and previously few days ago, did shiseido mask with baby.
thanks to baby sis for the mask.
its good man. very pore tightening & clean feeling.
but bad thing is, its a peel off mask. pain. LOL
please dont mind the below picture. LOL

lovelove. angbaos collected too. (:

2009-01-20T23:52:00.002+08:00

start work the same with cleaning.
and then slacked and learn ear candling. very fun.
and instead of Liu Jing doing my nails, Hai Xia did it for me.
i need to grow even longer toe nails.
and work ended early today. ard 5plus. (:
got a buffet dinner going on which i mention few days back.
lunch skipped and ready for the heavy dinner.
much thanks to helen again.
dinner at Holiday Inn Park View.
food was pretty okay. the chocolate fondue was the best. (:
anyway, had really a great time today.
except the ending which talks all about work after CNY. -.-''
Pictures will be uploaded. im tired now.

YAWNS~

precious darling is having duty now till 1am.
poor thing. later 5am got one more.
and worse worse still, he's gonna need to pluck off his wisdom tooth.
2 for tmr, another 2 for another date.
poor thing. hope he dont get down with a high fever.
cus i'll be really busy taking care of him. naggy baby. LOL
bye & nights ppl.

2009-01-15T00:19:00.002+08:00

before i go on, do help me click on my nuffnang ad.
thanks alot to you people. (: kisses

OMG. and here i am.
got a flu which kept me awake even though im already tired.
~~fuck it man!!~~
work is getting greater each and everyday. (:
with EssenceVale colleagues, and my two crazy BT girls.
jokes, craziness, stupidity ...
done 3 foot massage customers yesterday.
today 1 foot massage, plus that day sales done.
wow. commission is great man. (: LOL
i can hear the "$$KA-CHING$$" sound coming.
20th Jan will be having a buffet dinner early for CNY with colleagues.
Supervisor helen is giving the 3 BT girls(which is us), a treat.
she's so nice. feel like giving her a hug man.
hope Liu Jing is working tmr.
so she can help me do free pedicure with bling bling on.

and.. and.. and..
i miss my baby badly. wuwu.
he's gone out to sailing and will be back tmr noon.
gonna wait wait wait.

before i end..
got a advertisement to make.

do come down to D'Kranji Farm Resort EssenceVale Spa.
we have a CNY package promotion now.
starting from $32 which is Package A.
including..
-Soaking of foot
-Scrub with Lime ( have whitening effect, softens dead skin cells )
-Foot Massage
-Served with herbal tea ( nice leh!! )
-Got free gift somemore.
-Got lucky draw entry too!

still got more packages. till Package H.
we have foot, head & shoulders, face, body treatments.
pick one for yourself to enjoy.
if you do any one of the packages from A to H,
if you're considering doing waxing too, will have 50% discount on waxing.
do come and take a look.
its very peaceful and relaxing there.
promotion till 31 Jan 2009.

how to get there:
if you are taking MRT, drop off at yew tee station.
wait outside 7 eleven for the D'Kranji shuttle bus.
first bus starts at 8.30am.
will come every 1 hr.
and we opens at 10am.
walk in without appointment also can. (:

if you come, do say Jessica reccommend hor. LOL. just joking.

im off to handle my ~~fucking~~ flu now.

2009-01-12T21:10:00.002+08:00

after working for straight 6 days last week..
finally i met baby up during saturday.
and he's so nice to come all the way from pasir ris to yew tee.
just to fetch me back his home.
headed to yishun.
got no idea what to have for dinner.
worse still, im not even hungry and he forced me eat. zz
at last, settled down at Xin Wang cafe.
bus-ed back to pasir ris.
halfway the journey was a really funny one for us. right baby?
the night passed.. bla bla bla ..
and finally, after 6 days, its my off day on sunday. (:
helped to copied alot of notes for baby.
when night time falls, its a hard one for me to fall asleep.
i have to wait again to see him. upset. ):
and here again, baby i miss you.

today, monday blues for working ppl i supposed.
1 day off like no off like that.
but its okie la, cus my working colleagues are a bunch lots of funny ppl.
no customers today. but i kept yawning non stop.
and everyone will think & say.. "supervisors are mean ppl"
to me, no no. my supervisor help me massage my foot okie!!
envy right? hahaha. i love her too lah. she's cawaii lor.

ohh ya. daddy gave 150 each of us for new year shopping.
im gonna go buy some shorts for myself. hehe.
the rest, i save it up for rainy days.
so unlike me man!! i cant believe it. hahaha.
Jessica is a slightly changed lady. (:
im off to bed soon lah. tired. nights ppl.

2009-01-07T20:56:00.003+08:00

firstly...

HAPPY 7TH MONTH-SARY TO MY PRECIOUS !!!
yes. today is 7th of every month again.
im glad its you whom walked through this journey with me.
and im glad you're the one whom gave me everything.
giving me the best comfort, giving in to my mood swings and etc..
♥♥ cus baby, you're the one ♥♥

secondly..

its work again. today did long sessions of training.
foot massage test, head & shoulders massage,
head & shoulders bamboo massage & scalp massage.
i think i did best at scalp massage. LOL
tmr will be re-capping the massage again & learning body massage.
its 2x combo tiredness today.
came home with a moody face. damn.
will fall asleep even earlier today i think.
soon i'll be able to knock out at the same time with baby. LOL
its always me whom slept really late always when with him.
now.. its going to be different. haha.
im gone now. bye.

2009-01-06T22:20:00.004+08:00

its my 2nd day at work.

and im so freaking ~~fucking~~ tired now. LOL

but hereby a little news on how my work is doing.
currently learning the steps they teach on massage.
starting with foot massage & bamboo foot massage.
tmr will be body massage.
the learning process is tough as we are new, but fun!!
the staffs there are so friendly i doubt we will ever get bully. haha
and.. they have got a herb plantation of their own which is so cool.
i did watering for the plants today.
got a picture taken. but please let me find my hp cable first.
will upload again (:

here's some pictures..

outside work place

my fug-up face, eli & gwendoline *Beauty Therapy Girls

as for random .. presenting ..
my over dated picture. love.

im off to bed now. bye.

2009-01-03T00:12:00.002+08:00

真心无法做比较
就算我爱的很霸道
看你走上了天桥我走下了地下道
你和我的爱情就遗落在街角
看你越过分隔岛我转进单行道
一路把过去甩掉忘了曾经说过要一起到老

Cause i believe,
不想爱的轻易需要让你动情
因为怕你会离去
想念让人窒息所以不离不弃
每分钟都要和你亲近
让你安全我可以寸步不离
自尊都不要我也置之不理

im like a still doll.
one that cant move even with strings attached..
tired of staying just that position ~

2009-01-01T17:35:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW 2009 YEAR everyone!! (:

hmm, let me see...
most of the people have new year resoultion.
but i dont have one.
but im definitely taking each steps slowly at a time.

but i do wish everyone happy. (:
i definitely rot alot during my whole holiday.
4 more days towards starting attachment.
i absolutely hate it, yes i do.
no MCs, no Chinese New Year, nothing.
all got burned. ):
worse of all, most of my time is clashed with sweet BF.
hopfully he dont gets too naughty without me here by his side.
look on the bright side girl. (referring to myself)
at least im earning money to be able to buy loads of stuffs.
my room soon will be flooded with more "rubbish" again.

im super bored now man.
its like, i have been reading Flowerpod forums for hours already.
rest awhile, dinner in awhile more.
then chnl8 tv shows to kill boredom while loading my anime.
stucked on 2 new anime now.
baby recommend, Claymore.
and i recommend Vampire Knights which is season one.
i've completed the whole episodes.
now watching season 2.
Vampire Knights Guilty. its nice, really. Thumbs up.
Bro is also watching this show too. LOL

im off. being too wordy already.

2008-12-29T14:38:00.002+08:00

im getting really excited now.
at the same time feeling abit of afraid.
i bet my dear eli is feeling the same as me too.
counting down 7 more days..
and we are starting our attachment at EssenceVale on the 5th.
breathe in.. and out..
still very nervous. OMG!!
every now and then, i keep having the urge to look at calendars.
its such a bad habit. *slap myself*
im off to shower & return dvds. bye.

tagboard reply from Jessica to passerby:
because on his bday that day was spent in camp.
and earlier on he celebrated with his family.
why are you so concerned abt it? :D

2008-12-26T13:05:00.007+08:00

A belated Merry Christmas to all.

Christmas eve was one happy occasion for me.
early morning woke up get prepared and off to NaiNai's place.
after that, within minutes.
took off to pick Ling Kuku aka "Mummy".
shifted off to Orchard to buy Choc fondue set.
Bro & sis went to pick up cake, Ling kuku pick up Ham.
back to nainai place. settled down awhile and started cooking.
Cai cooked mashed potato, Jie did up the mushroom soup.
Ling kuku do the salad.
5plus, headed to pick up the sushi daddy ordered with Nainai.
real busy!! reached home soon enough able to start eating.

and the rest let the pictures talk then.

i only have these pictures currently. the rest with others.
christmas was equally fun too.
went out with dear baby & his friends to catch movie, IP Man.

and there the mad boy(baby) goes again.
"im Ye Wen!! call me ye wen"
crazy right? but he's definitely the one whom made me laughed alot.
dinner at HK Xin Wang Cafe. Delicious!
walk around orchard making jokes, talking cock. LOL
slacked awhile, they went for billard sessions.
baby & i went home after that.
showered, watch tv, skin care & mask for both of us.
2am plus 3 , off we went to bed.
ohh, did i mentioned? i deleted friendster.
way too lag & slow. i dont need to know new guys too. right baby?
he deleted his too. LOL
results are out today too.
and i got B's for all grades which is very good.
except for my selling skills & PE. haha.
my GPA points - 2.606
congrats to me. (:

be back fast baby. im waiting for you. tmr morning, rise & shine.
it will be a better day ahead for all of us. (:

2008-12-22T20:13:00.002+08:00

tmr will be my sweet baby birthday.
therefore, birthdays wishes are for later (:
the day before yesterday,
went out with baby for movie,
THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL
movie was so so.

due to no longer used to wearing high heels,
baby bought a box of Hansaplast for me.
im so troublesome. LOL
waited for his friends, met up.
and off to drinking.
first time i drank with baby.
feel kinda uncomfortable at first. LOL. zz
his friends all are funny too.
both baby & i got a little tipsy in the end.
cabbed home. both of us feel so crazy at that time.
showered and off to bed.
slept till the next afternoon then wake up. haha

wednesday will be Christmas Eve.
and i'll be off to nai nai house for celebrations. (:
love. christmas food, here i come!! YUM YUM

2008-12-19T23:26:00.006+08:00

okie. i know im lazy to post anything.

but here's one finally.
back to darling home again.
and previous few days, was at home slacking the way thru.
yesterday morning, went gym and then swimming to burn fats.
again with my brothers & jiaren.
then back home, bathe changed blabla.. and off to Bugis.
the four of us was feeling so dead tired and still managed to shop.
i bought a new slipper again.
a good news for me, i can wear slippers to attachment!!!
im so freaking happy. LOL!!
because slipper is the best comfy footwear for me.
aches free, blisters free too. (:
and, i straighten my side hair which gives curl problems.
and i dyed my hair too. hahaha. RED is the color. (:
loving it to bits.

heres is one picture to show how much i've changed.
click for a larger picture.

thats how much i've changed. zz

i dont have much to post about.
but currently im busy playing my PSP game.
got addicted to Final Fantasy Dissidia.

A Battle for the Crystals...

A Battle for the Future...

game characters

the game content

currently there is a japanese version one, which im playing.
me & bro is still waiting for the english version one.
so if anyone happens to comes by this with english version let me know.

im gone ~ love.

2008-12-12T00:51:00.004+08:00

finally i found myself suffocating.
but still, for the main reason i'll look forward.
cus i know this is a minor one.
i guess its cus i hardly say everything out.
maybe that's the main reason that i'm suffocating.
and yes, i've been thinking too much ):
but still, you're the one i need here.

and i come across a song which suits my current feelings.
which i wanna say, yes i do feel that way.

Have You Ever from Brandy

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day
when they will care

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever?

2008-12-07T19:10:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 6TH MONTH BABY LOVE!!

finally baby, half year passed smoothly for us.
not always very smoothly lah.
but still im greatful being with you.
thankyou for tolerating my 'uniquely' temper.
i know its intolerable for you most of the times.
im sorry.
bu im glad you stayed here with me thruout the hardest times.
i know i might be boring for you.
but i do make you laugh to kill boredom.
i know im stupid & clumsy. bear with me love.
i hate your dota, but i love sitting beside you talking nonsense.
i know im silly most of the times.
i do great at sobbing into tears whenever i cant solve our probs.
but you were here for me.
even though most of the times you burst into anger.
i know some stuffs made you lost trust in me.
but you promised to trust me one more time.
and i do promise to cherish those trust.
soon you will be out to sea, throwing me home alone missing you.
go to your ship in peace.
cus i promise you, i'll never betray your love.
i hope after this 6 months, it will still going to go counting on.
never let it stop okie, wobbly stomach? :) ♥♥
lets just go thru thick & thin tog.
got nice or bad things, i'll share it with you.
and so must you.
we promise never to keep anything to ourselves.
lastly, iloveyou baby.

2008-12-04T23:08:00.003+08:00

ohh. before i even forget.

which finally i get to update those late pictures.
thank you baby for the early birthday present & beautiful cake.

next, thanks ayu & co for celebrating eli's & my birthday

everything is much appreciated. the best love & fun.
im looking forward to this saturday swimming.
down with a manly voice now. ewww

exams finally over!!!!
counting down 3 more days to half year anniversary with baby.
5 more days to still stay by his side cuddling.

movie of the day:

bolt is super CUTE !!!!!!

2008-12-03T18:03:00.003+08:00

SLO paper done on monday.
wasnt so tough. but still some mistakes made.
BDM paper was yesterday.
its very easy lah.
teacher only changed slightly little bit of the qns at revision.
but still, due to being very nervous..
i forgot some of it.
to think its acually a giving-you- full-marks paper.
i've done my best.
today DLT paper. (:
luckily i studied yesterday afternoon.
and the paper today was so freaking easy.
tomorrow will be SES paper.
the one that im worrying about.
i dont know whether i can pass anot.
a just pass for this paper will do.
MCQs should not be a problem.
the main problem will be structured qns. ):
to think nothing goes in my head right now. arghh.

im only 50% smart. thats what i told baby.
im a hungry lady now.
still waiting for that pig baby to be back.

Schedule Plan

- friday working in school
-saturday swimming & fun at jurong
-coming half year with baby this sunday, finally :D
-the rest of the days are for baby before he's gone(endurance for both of us)
HOLIDAYS fun time
-sentosa trip anytime soon in DEC with the girls
-24th dec Christmas party with family

i've got a long list to list it out.
sad case is CNY i cant celebrate due to attachment. ):
but, its okie lah.
my brothers help me collect $$. hehe.
im off to meet that pig head.
wish me lucks for studying & tmr last paper.

2008-12-01T15:47:00.002+08:00

will be staying thru-out with dear boyfriend this few weeks.
he will be posting out to ship during this coming 9th dec. UPSET!!
2-3 weeks of not able to book out.
its even more terrible.
but we promise each other,
endure for 2 months and done. (:

exams are here.
1-4 dec of stressing over all my module books.
and then its ...
fun, work, play time.
holidays and attachment soon.
wish all the beauty girls the best.

ohh, btw ..
thanks to ayu & co for the birthday celebration.
its my ever first time being thrown into the sea !!
but still, thanks girls.

2008-11-26T11:43:00.002+08:00

cus i guess, my birthday a normal one.

every year, also the same one.

nothing much or exciting i suppose.

on the exact day of birthday,

its going to go just like that.

but thanks the many for the birthday wishes.

my pretty Eli-housefly is the first to wish me at 12 sharp.

she has always been a great friend.

cus for everything,

she has always been by my side.

love.

2008-11-23T22:54:00.003+08:00

23 nov 08

baby celebrated my birthday earlier as he thought he cant celebrate tog on the actual day.
and so, he asked his mom to cook up some dishes for me.
and the surprise was, he ordered a cake for me.
he told me the surprise later on. but he didnt tell me what kinda surprise is it.
so i waited and waited. and fianlly..
the cake delivered over. but i totally didnt know about it.
in the room watching drama for so long, of cus cant hear anything lah. LOL
just right at that time, baby ask me to watch myself first.
he went out for so long. my drama was so hilarious, so i didnt care much. hehe.
he came in, call out "baby". i turn back say "huh?"
shocked. He hold the birthday cake with candles lighted up in his hands,
and sang a brithday song for me. im so very touched.
i nearly burst into tears lah. :) made my wish, candles blown out.
cake cut. and share it. he bought me a STRAWBERRY CHEESECAKE !!!!
a heart shaped one too. very big. cus they only got one size for heart shaped one.
very yummylicious. haha. picture, i'll upload it another day. very lazy now. :)
from today onwards, baby will book out and be back home everyday at 6pm.
because, he is posting out to ship soon lah. after he clear his leave and all,
off he go in dec. :( hope the people in there dont mistreat him so badly.
although i know he sometimes very "qian da" but, he's still my cute one lah.

24 nov 08

anyway, im currently addicted to this drama.

very funny. im waiting for ep 12 to come out.

im off to bed soon. after my nosebleed just now, im feeling my head is heavy lah.

2008-11-20T22:24:00.002+08:00

INTERVIEW at EssenceVale

its nothing much, questions has been asked, forms filled.
the next is to wait patiently for results.
may luck be with me.

smellygirl is off to shower.
tired. more BDM revision tmr.
love.

2008-11-17T19:41:00.002+08:00

cus you are always the love.
lets not talk about the upset stuffs anymore. LOVE YOU! (:

finally took out my time and visited nainai & relatives.
i definitely had a nice dinner & chat there. (:
i want more of that dinner lah. Dan Dan Jie, cook for me please. LOL
family gatherings are always the best. love.

many thanks to baby for looking after me.
i had a slight fever and a very bad cough.
and he looked after me thru out. he is so sweet man!!

im ending with a better taken short hair picture.

with love, :)

2008-11-13T20:50:00.003+08:00

I'VE CUT MY LONG HAIR!!

HERE COMES..

how is it? comment please.
many says its wasted.
i think so too.
but, its a new hairstyle.
im bored of my long hair.
long hair, come again later bah baby. LOL

days ago:

caught this with baby. its so funny. haha.
i like to move it, move it.
i like to MOVE IT!! hee.

2008-11-10T23:57:00.004+08:00

have been busy these days. busy here & there. LOL
im cutting Bob+Bangs hairstyle tmr.
a new me. baby is agreeing to it. he wanna see a new me on friday. =)

like this.. possible for my face?
but im cutting tmr already. by wednesday i will have a new hairstyle.
wohooooo!!!!!!

when you are always right here by my side, love. ♥♥
i miss my pretty baby boy.

BDM practical tmr, and im still not asleep.
6am gotta wake up already leh.
make up, bun my hair, prepare to go school & ready for stress. LOL

a target set for myself :

time to lose weight !!!!!
miss cellulites, you dont belong here. GO AWAY!!
its time to go gym again. time to work out those fats & sweats again.

im off to bed. tired~

2008-11-08T11:15:00.003+08:00

im off for facial with Janice soon. =)
and yesterday was my 5th month with MrSweetBF.
the day before yesterday, baby went with me to get my new phone. =)
and here i present my Samsung SGH-U900. loving it to the max currently.
was busy transferring stuffs into it yesterday & getting use to it too. LOL
the actual photo will be updated later when i got the time.

shopping, movies later after facial with Baby. =)
will be back to update more. =) lovelove.

2008-11-05T23:11:00.004+08:00

I HATE YOU LA !!!!

is keeping me company really so bored? so not entertaining?
i dont understand okie. im very upset, very fed up right now. =(
right at this minute. you are snoring away currently.
and just when i finished my script, not even a few minutes of talk,
and off you went to sleep. i told you.. you will sleep all the way.
forget it. i guess its like that. =(
nevermind.

2008-11-04T00:27:00.004+08:00

one more time, quarrels came between us.
but, i really done nothing wrong this time.
its hard to trust me eh?
the only thing i tried and gave in while still explaining is cause,
i still love you silly.

for what i know, my eyes are kinda swollen now.
thanks my pretty housefly eli for the long long comforting & being my listening ear.
once again, we missed the ses role play. wth.
thursday im gonna do a good one for you eli. =)
BDM test today. i didnt really read much.
nothing went in my head. was moodless the whole morning till evening.
i hope i pass. at least a pass i'll be happy too.
cus i know i didnt put in alot effort for today class test.

COUNTING DOWN... 22 DAYS MORE TO MY OFFICIAL 19TH BIRTHDAY

i was just telling baby that im turning 20 soon next year.
its like super fast you see. i wish i never grew up.
cus i can play more, and less troubles & worries to stress on. LOL

finally im tired. im off to bed soon.
waxing prac tmr. wish me luck. eli's BDM prac tmr, wish her luck too.
mine on friday.. wish me many lucks.
exams are finally here after so long.

tata-s

2008-10-28T23:46:00.005+08:00

one project finally completed. =) left with some little printings only.
and we are done. another project is near to completion but need some editing.
after that, projects complete, means its exams period soon.
next week my turn for waxing practical test. wish me lucks. =)

and someone complain my blog very sian. cus no pictures.
but when there is alot of pictures, he complains i very zhi lian. ass !!

heres some pictures taken during & after WSS days.

exams & school has been driving me nuts recently. help me please someone.
thought of going on MC tomorrow. but, i dont know.
its not a good time to go on MC. but my head seems to be kinda spinning.
tmr morning then see how. hahaa. hopefully i go to school.
and i regret not going for supper with Leo & his gf.
cus im currently hungry. nevermind. tmr morning wake up eat cereal. hehe.
im off from blog. gone~

2008-10-27T14:01:00.002+08:00

catch The Coffin last night. definitely a crappy show.

although there are some parts where i got shocked. but still crappy.

dont go watch. waste money.

after movie, headed to Xin Wang HK cafe for dinner.

after dinner the both of us stroll down to Pasir Ris Park for a walk.

we had fun running out of dark places like crazy couple. right baby?

then, walked a distance off and sat down at the sands where we start talking.

a heart to heart talk. there's alot to say. which brings tears & heartaches.

but at least everything is said and had already understand the feelings for this past 4 months.

i guess we need more of this heart to heart talk.

like once every month. LOL.

and last but not least, baby i love you. and i'll always do.

anyway, some stupid pig place his ipod in the pocket & forgot to take it out.

off it goes in the washing machine for 2hours plus spinning with water in it.

hahaha. poor thing lah you baby. Oopps. i named him.

i buy you one k? since you so good to me, buy me new ipod & wanna buy me a new phone too.

love k? sayang you.

im off to watch shows. lalala~

2008-10-25T14:34:00.003+08:00

and im very stressed up i know.

projects is still coming its way in.

some people are still like that when they know datelines are coming near.

woke up and i ate 2 egg pratas today.

which reminds me of a friend. curry+sugar = yummy tastylicious

im quite addicted to it. LOL

waiting for baby to wake up from his sleep.

poor little thing. he has got duty later again at 12am again.

he just called me and complain. ahahahahahaha.

and that stupid guy snore so loudly he cant go back to sleep. LOL

will see him soon tmr morning. then, its going out to enjoy.

monday is a holiday. but doesnt mean im having mine too.

its still projects, projects and more projects..

time to relax my mind for awhile. LOL

online shop a little. and so many stuffs caught my eye.

im still thinking want to go look for a job anot.

attachments should be around the corner already lor. bored.

im going back to my online shop. lalalala~

2008-10-23T20:07:00.002+08:00

im so stressed up!!!

projects, scripts, datelines.

OMG, OMG !!

2008-10-22T23:44:00.002+08:00

pheww. am thinking whether to wake up at 6am or not tmr.
but think think, cannot. first lesson, BDM. zzz
im seriously tired lor. can die leh. =(
today stayed back in school do project with my group till 4pm plus like that.
den headed back to woodlands with eli. tired lor.
we head to samsung. look see at the phone i wanna buy.
decided to buy it. hahaa. the color not all that ugly after all. =)
im going to thank baby a millions. haha. but i got share $50voucher & $75 hor!!
baby you dont action hor. think you come out alot money.
i got my share & voucher one okie!! =p

den head to popular with that housefly/eli to buy printing paper for project.
decided to go macdonalds and do more of the project.
so it wont be so rush for us. the both of us are super funny ok.
we aim for the cushion seats. den change here and there. LOL
ppl will think we are crazy one lor. hahaaha. dinner settled at mac.
den start looking thru the project scripts. OMFG its so.. dont want say.
re-write again & start thinking with our creative minds.
alot craps came up. but, of cus got serious work typed down too. =)
till 10plus we finally finish the scripts. zz.
now the both of us seriously need a massage.
back pain, stomach menses cramps & shoulder aches.
all that laptop fault. so heavy sia. LOL

im going off to bed ler lah. cant take it anymore. nights nights.

2008-10-21T19:47:00.003+08:00

until finally, we settled everything.
wanting to start all over again. its abit hard. but i'll keep trying.
cus i know i want you here by my side.
let's put all the unhappiness behind us & lead a new chapter k?
at least i know, you're the reason that made eli saw me throw my phone on the floor.
because i wanted to solve the problem.
but end up, i keep saying the wrong words.
im not very good putting words tog to save myself from trouble most of the times.
thats why it made you lose temper with blood boiling up yr brains.
im sorry sweetheart baby. ♥♥

for you, i love you still.

2008-10-20T13:42:00.004+08:00

for this time, i know i did wrong. im sorry.
i cried hard. you saw it.
but you cried thrice, it tears me apart to see it.

for the doings, im sorry.
please stay will you? i know i want to.
till finally i realise these tears meant so much.
so much that i know, i dont wanna lose you anymore.
just you. stay will you?
i promise i never do it anymore.

the moment when i packed up, you're still sitting there,
and at that point of time,
that moment you asked me leave,
im totally shattered.
i lose control. you saw it too.
yet you smile & acted calmly like you think you should.
you're still clicking away, like nothing happened.
and when i pull the chair aside,
i know i wanna make you stay.
i hugged you tightly then i broke down into tears.
i cried so long. and i heard you crying too. that was the first time i hear you cry.
im sorry for the tears shed. i never wanted it this way.
i know its hard for you to trust again.
the chance that you given, i'll keep it safely.
never to lose it again.
now i have to start all over again.
and i promise, the outcome, it will be worth the wait.
dont treat me like a stranger. i need your shoulder.
you said you gonna company me to somewhere quiet.
i'll wait for the weekend.
till today morning, my tears are still shedding.
now my eyes swollen like goldfish.
my head hurts, and im running a slight fever.
yet i didnt tell you. afraid you will be worried.
but if you come in & read here, i know i will get a scolding from you.
for many words still left unsaid, please refer to our book k?

fat boy.. i want you, & need you here by my side.

2008-10-15T22:13:00.006+08:00

since days i last posted. firstly, too lazy.
secondly, too tired. lastly, i dont feel like blogging. LOL

its just a remark la.

anyway, its back to school days. projects piling up, revisions coming in.
worse is, exams all coming at one time. hai.
wish me luck then. im graduating soon after december exams.
then, will be my 3months of attachment.
i scared go out ppl will bully me lor. but i doubt lah.
im so cute right? will be loved. LOL. must look at the better side.
anyway, this week no lessons. but its $$ time.
working in school help preparing for the competition stuffs tmr till saturday.
im so tired lor. i can sleep the whole day i think. LOL

*for this part, it has been removed.*

time for me to go shower & off to bed. im dead shag. tatas.

2008-10-11T22:22:00.002+08:00

working in school was super fun.
today was quite alone. many people didnt come.
but times passes smoothly for me.
today became the model for the World Skills Girls for their Glamour Make Up Practice.
im gonna be the model for their finals too.
hope the lot that i choose can be her again.
she do me up prettily man. haha. i like it.
but baby dont appreciate it. he says im like being boxed. Zz.

pretty?

i slept thru the whole evening till now then wake up. baby woked up earlier then me.
looks like im really dead tired. woked up real early this few days.
Monday is the end of my holidays also my starting day of school. SIAN~
im dying to look for a part time job lor. i need a job. i need $$. intro anyone?

back to last few days. after gym session, at night, i met up with lingling for dinner.
yes. its double times dinner. walked about at causeway point.
then head back home. while walking under my block, nearly reaching home..
saw this guy following behind me, which he suddenly stopped me.
he looks somewhat of messy & dirty & abit of 'gong' look.
the first thing he opened his mouth is, "can you talk to me? i need someone to talk to."
i was like, shocked. he keeps asking me to be his friend.
i say no. he keep insisting that i talk to him. he simply wont let me go back home. =(
even after i said that i am busy. need to rush back.
i walked one step, he follow one step. in order not to let him follow me home, i talked to him.
asking him to faster say what he want. then, he told me about his family problems.
wanting my help. which i dont think i can give any advice to him.
and here comes the exciting part.
he says he wanna change sex to a girl body. asking me is it able to?
i say yes its able to. but, will be exp for the surgery.
and he asked do i know why he wanna be a girl.
*the below stated content written is a little pervert*
he touched his cock, & say.. "because i dont want a guy's ku ku bird."
i was like, "HUH..!!??" and while still touching his cock, he repeated again.
he says " i wanna be like a girl, bottom flat flat one."
i was like, WTF !!
and he said while looking at my boobs,
" i wanna have big breasts like girls, like you like that."
i was thinking deep down, "OMFG you are one damn fucking smelly pervert asshole."
this time round, he comes near to me even still.
im already shivering all over & near to bursting into tears at that time. sobsob.
i told him to wait. i need to make a urgent call first.
and moved away abit, he still steps forward, and call for help.
and slowly i moved towards the basketball court, hanging the call & looking for help.
those malay guys playing soccer used to disturb me.
and while crying, i told them everything, asking one of them to company me to the lift.
as the guy they seen following me is harassing me not wanting to let me go home.
so 2 of the guys companied me, the rest go check that he is not following us.
crying & still shivering, they companied me back home. i did thanked them too.
was being consoled by my brother, shijie asking me not to cry after i relate the story to him.
shicai bro & amelia was laughing all the way. so bad of them.
that was one bad experience. =(
*thanks to all that consoled me. appreciate that alot. thankyou.

im going off. byebye.

2008-10-08T18:13:00.006+08:00

Gym sessions for today morning.
waking up early is tired. but exercising to lose fats is even great.
packed up all stuffs and set out. =)

went in, alot big muscles guys ar..
but im too shy to look at any of them. LOL
to put it easier, im the smallest person inside. Paiseh okay. Laugh~
the most that i done, is running for 20mins. tired leh.
got a blister on my left feet too. OUCH!! it hurts.
not to mention i sweat super alot too. LOL.

after that, went swimming next.
didnt really swim. but sit inside the water & relax talk talk too lor.
short day today. but dead tired lor. =P
should go to bed soon i guess. LOL. pictures will be up.

gym & swimming

bro weight gaining drink

which HP strap nicer? flower or Smiley? comment please.

pictures from yesterday on the way to hospital:

the dress from dressabelle. which ways of wearing nicer? do comment.

im off. byebye.

2008-10-06T12:20:00.011+08:00

for everything, thankyou.

and the last, you're the best.

i know.. and i always do.

there is a class chalet upcoming.

im going there later on.

enjoy all the fun i can later.

and enjoy to the max.

i hope many pictures will be on the way.

will be back to blog about what it is all happening there.

so do tune in later on.

by the way, instead of high street 5,

i switched back to audition.

its more user friendly & better.

so do tell me, if anyone's playing audition. love.

im back finally. =)

bad news is, dad got hospitalised yesterday.

i did visit him after my chalet.

poor thing daddy.

will be visiting him again later on too.

the chalet was fun.

let the pictures talk then..

there are even more pictures.
but not in my camera.
will try & get it from them. =)

07 October 2008
firstly, i wanna wish baby..
HAPPY 4TH MONTH BABY.

my dress from dressabelle has arrived.
its pretty of cus.
visited daddy today.
he had a blockage in the heart.
got a long chat with both my bros during lunch.
its a secret.
thats what i know.
met up with Bro friend.
psst* its a girl. haha.
spell A-M-E-L-I-A with me.
LOL. she is cute lah.
bought another pair of FBT shorts today.
visited ah ma too.
and den causeway point to help bro sign the GNC thing.
soon after,
HOME SWEET HOME.

im tired lah. will sleep soon.
tomorrow, its Gym sessions & Swimming sessions.
going with bro friends & that cute girl. haha.
i wanna buy the Gucci HP long Strap.
but currently, i will buy one plain long one for standby. =P

byebye. love.

2008-10-04T23:57:00.003+08:00

have been working in school for the past 2days.
doing housekeeping work. im the Laundry Girl..!! LOL
school working has been real fun. many jokes. many laughters too.
not to forget, im earning my own pocket money too. haha.
and when i have $$.., its time to hear it goes.. KA-CHING!! again. LOL

last night after work, caught a movie with Baby & his parents tgther. =)

Movie Of The Day:

the movie was not too bad. but its more of touching for me.
the love.. & the hate..

and then, today went baby ah ma house to celebrate her birthday.
and yes, there is card games. didnt wanna play at first.
but, baby say im not sporting enough. sadded.
because the tone & the attitude he gave was abit too over.
I DONT LIKE IT !!! =) and thanks to baby mum. she gave us $10 each to play.
hahahha. lovelove. he told me, his aunt they all seems to like me alot. LOL
baby.. yr aunt ask you to 不要花心!! LOL
won slightly little bit only lah. and den back to home sweet home.

im off to sleep soon lah. tired. created highstreet5 in baby's comp. =)
if anyone's playing, do tell me k? company me play too. hahahaa.
im gone.. nights. many many love.